this geez-feeling of me

actually,i still have a bit pieces left. But instead, i deny that, cause all of that fact. That blablabla reason, a short story with tragic ending. Yes, maybe it reads so hiperbolic for all of you, readers. And that's my true feeling, for now.

Every single second, i try to carry on, don't want to even remember a small thing i had with her. Cause thinking of it, only scars my heart. I know maybe i am weak, i am not capable of being a men like in the love movie. Such a disgrace i should say, i'm not eligible enough for you.

You know something ? I try to, yeah i tried to make every single moment we had to be great, cool, memorable and other nice thingy. Yet you want it different, screw it all into a mess. Am i wrong. wrong to choose you i guess.

i should have.........